It's been four months since I was laid off from my role at GlobalLogic, and today was particularly tough. I took a nap and ended up crying a lot. My unemployment benefits have run out, and Texas still requires me to report my job search activities even though I'm not receiving any payments anymore. It feels like the state is doing everything it can to make things harder for those of us struggling. To make matters worse, I'm on the verge of losing my health insurance. The heat index here is around 110 every day, which makes going outside unbearable. I have little motivation to exercise and spend most of my days applying for jobs and mindlessly scrolling through my phone. I used to enjoy reading books and watching new anime, but I can barely muster the energy for those activities anymore. My experience at GlobalLogic was so demoralizing that I'm now terrified of the thought of returning to work. I find myself running away from any job openings that might lead to a similar situation. So far, I've received five rejection letters and one scam job offer, with the rest of my applications resulting in complete silence. The scam offer was obvious when they suggested we conduct the interview over Teams for 40 minutes. It's disheartening to mention that I just want a job where I can write, research, or teach, and people act like I'm asking for something outrageous. I hope to find a position that doesn't involve the toxic grind culture, especially since I've been feeling passively suicidal this past week.
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